Andrew's life in text

When does one outgrow tag? Never, I hope.

2011-07-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

The latter part of this day was great, hanging out with the Valencia guys.

Jeff, a buddy from seventh grade who moved to Washington the next year, came back down to visit. The whole middle school gang, plus and minus a few, got together for some night football at the park. But… the lights wouldn’t turn on. So… now what?…

A spontaneous “NOT IT!” and next thing we knew, we were running.
A solid two and a half rounds of “Zombies” filled with camouflage planking, fence jumping, tree climbing, frenzied screaming, rabid sprinting, and some good ol’ dickin’ around.

It felt good to be with the guys again.
It was great to see that, after all these years, Jeff was still one of the guys.
Our dynamic has not changed much. Troy said maybe it’s ‘cause all our inner geeks run wild when we’re together. Sounds about right.
And lastly, it was fuckin’ great to see that we could still have a blast playing tag together as college-bound “adults.”

The Future

2011-04-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

The future and whatnot

I love Wesleyan. I honestly think it’s the right college for me. My conviction for this love may be a result of the unnatural energy and passion at WesFest, the absolute love that students have for their school, or even the other amazing pre-frosh that I’d be glad to call my peers — or maybe Wesleyan’s just the best salesman that ever was.

Above all though, I think the single factor that sold Wesleyan to me was the feeling that anything’s possible there. Wesleyan made me feel like I really canmake it work with anything I pursue. As long as I love it, there’s no reason I can’t make it work.

“Be a doctor,” and “Do what you love.” One is practical, while the other is idealistic. But in the end, idealism with no pragmatism can only do so much.

Expanding on this quandary, I see a Catch-22 in my future.

The Wesleyan Scenario:

I would only pursue film studies if I attend Wesleyan because Wesleyan has one of the best critical film studies programs in the country.
Conversely, a full 230k tuition over four years cannot justify a degree in film studies with an uncertain career future.
Thus, even though Wesleyan is the only place I’d feel comfortable really pursuing my “passion,” it’s just not practical because of my financial situation.

The Any-School-That-Has-Offered-Me-Some-Financial-Aid Scenario:

Film studies would be an option because of the significantly lower price tag on my education. There would be less financial pressure, but it’s hard to do anything with a film studies degree at a school with an unknown film department.

In either case, I will not pursue film studies.

That leaves medicine, the path I’ve been told to follow.

—But Wesleyan got me thinking.

Emerson’s quote feels applicable:

“Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.”

At this point, I honestly don’t know what I want to study. I’m interested in film, psychology, history, linguistics… But those plans are so idealistic— not practical enough, no security.

I guess I’ll see what happens.

I just feel really damn conflicted and confused right now.

In any case, I’m 99% sure I will not be going to Wesleyan. I’ve decided it’s not worth an extra 60k over four years.

Post-Sister Talk

I just talked with my sister on the phone for two hours. The previous post was written before that.

Scratch a lot of what I said in the previous post. I think I understand. Pragmatism’s necessary. The future’s scary and exciting.

I love my sister.

Dream 3/12 - 3/13 (Notes)

2011-03-13T16:59:00.000-07:00

Different approach to how I dream log…

It was much faster and easier for me, but now that I’ve written it down, I can’t quite discern the order of things. So instead of a linear dream, I remember it as a bunch of fragmented details.

Hmm. I’m not sure if I’ll do this again. Even though it’s faster and more convenient, it feels a lot more disjointed in my mind than when I just type it out, and I’m not sure if this would do much for my dream recall either.

BEST CINEMATOGRAPHY!

2011-02-12T21:21:00.000-08:00

Those 24 hours of hell paid off!

Two high school seniors and three college freshmen, none of whom are majoring in film, managed to take best cinematography at the USC Ed Wood Film Fest against a bunch of SCA students. Not to toot our own horn, but I say that's pretty nuts.

We're trying to spread this video around, so apologies for the shameless self-promotion. If you see this floatin' around on tumblr it'd be cool if you could reblog! (It's hard to spread non-cutesy stuff around...)

Ed Wood Film Festival

2011-02-06T21:22:00.000-08:00

Hosted by USC School of Cinematic Arts

24 hours to plan, shoot, and edit a short film up to 5 minutes.

Saturday, noon - Sunday, noon

5 Man Team: Brandon Choe, Kevin Dinh, Justin Nguyen, An Tran, Andrew Yang

The theme and prop were revealed at exactly noon on Saturday, so preparation would have been impossible.

Theme: As bad as it gets

Prop: Energy drink

2 hours of straight brainstorming

2-3 hours of collecting materials and figuring out logistics

2.5-3 hours of rushed and stressful filming

A couple hours of collaborative editing

Time driving

Not enough meals

Not enough sleep

"Guerrilla filmmaking" at its finest.

We find out before Friday whether or not we've placed in the top 15.

Film screening and awards are on Friday at 7 PM.

We shall post our short after Friday if we make top 15... maybe before if we don't.

Friday night shit goes DOWN... Back at 3:30 AM. Reconvene at 10:30 AM. 24 hours.

And it was the weirdest thing knowing that Winter Formal was going on at the same time while we were stressed the fuck out filming.

This weekend was TOO FUCKING CRAZY.

Dream 1/18 - 1/19

2011-01-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

I was at a kickback and took ten shots. Then, everything started distorting and I can only assume that I was “drunk” in my dream. This part of the dream was unequivocally in first person (I usually dream in 3rd person or I can’t tell) and my vision started to blur and I had like, a sensory overload. Everything was awesome. Except the thing is, I’ve never been drunk or buzzed so I think my mind constructed the sensation for my dream. It’s kinda cool how my mind did that.

/

Adam was in my kitchen eating my mom’s food.

Adam: Damn these meatballs are so good!
Me: Yeah, aren’t they like, packed with flavor?
Adam: Actually, they’re not that great. I just said that really loudly to compliment your mom.
Me: oh…
Adam: BUT THIS SRIRACHA SAUCE IS POPPIN’

That’s all I remember.

San Diego Trip

2011-01-17T20:07:00.000-08:00

Finally, after 5 or 6? years, WE FINALLY WENT.

Group: Troy, Ashwin, Vince, and I

Hopefully next time it'll be all the guys.

I guess this isn't actually the trip we've been envisioning since 7th grade (take the train and bike), but it was pretty damn fun anyway.

Everyone except for me had diarrhea - random, but I thought that was kinda ridiculous.

- Car games on the way there

- Fed some fuckin' cute squirrels at a view point

- Arrived in the city

- Seasomethin' Village

- Went against traffic on a one way street before bailing into a parking structure...

- Petco Park

- Vince had a little problem on the way to Ghirardelli. Hilarity ensued.

- Did work on an EARTHQUAKE SUNDAE at Ghirardelli

- Accidentally stopped on the trolley tracks and moved up just as the blocks started coming down

- Got lost on the way to Olympic Center, ended up in a random neighborhood

- Hopped the fence to the community pool and swam in the pool for a while, invented a ridiculously fun game

- Rubio's

- Olympic Center

- Car games on the way back

This weekend was fuckin' great. (for the most part)

This trip was definitely what I needed.

One left

2011-01-16T18:11:00.000-08:00

19/20.

(Emory's deadline was pushed back to Feb 1)

Dream 1/11 - 1/12 (Lucid 1)

2011-01-12T22:57:00.001-08:00

Brief summaries:

Dream 1 - I see turtles in a little tank, pick one up, and notice it has an unusually soft shell.

Dream 2 - I’m visiting Bowdoin and it’s the best place in the world. Quite literally, everything about it makes me smile. The dream goes from great to shitty in a heartbeat. A bunch of friends are there too and it turns out they’ve all been accepted but I’m still waiting on the second letter. I have serious doubts about getting in. I see Jin, but my mind recognizes her as a different person. (so she looks like Jin, but is actually __) Altercation.
But then it turns out this is a dream within a dream because I tell somebody about it.

Dream 3 - I’m with Karina at her locker. I put my hand on the locker and I realize I’m dreaming. I begin to wake up in real life, so I start spinning around in my dream. It’s not working, so I figure I have to do SOMETHING before I wake up. I thrust my hand at the locker, and my hand goes through the metal.

That’s all I remember.

Fed up

2011-01-12T21:37:00.000-08:00

Too much bullshit lately.

I wanna go skydiving.

Triangle Count: 13

2011-01-02T00:41:00.001-08:00

Square Count: 7

2 to knock off on the 3rd

5 to knock off by the 15th.

Woopwoopwoop.

Oh, and-

2011-01-01T04:37:00.001-08:00

Happy Two-Year, Mr. Blog.

Nice to meet you 2011, I'm Andrew. I hope we get along.

2011-01-01T01:26:00.000-08:00

Last Year's Resolutions:

Resolutions for the New Year:
- Suck it up and tough it out the rest of junior year, and get some good grades. (I'mma have to say BIG FAIL on this..)
- Do all of my homework. (Even though this has failed every single time.) F-F-F-F-FAILLL
- Go on a 40 mile + bike ride once a week Fail... :( Although there were a few good rides.
- Continue to blog Fail. If blogs could get dusty... well, uh... this one would be dusty.
- See the good in people, as much as possible. I want to say success.
- I think... I want to keep a dream log again. Off and on. Failcess
- Have a damn good start to senior year Started off rocky as hell, but Success.
- Read the Economist, stay up to date on world news Off and on. Failcess
- Continue to figure myself out. I'm gettin' there.

2010 was an alright year. It had its highs and lows.

- Junior year sucked nuts.

- Made new friends.

- Yef. :D ...

- Finished internship.

- Went to fuckin' FBLA NATIONALS!... and had a shitty time. Damn flood.

- Discovered my love for trees.

- Deferred from dream school. (Hope is still out there!)

- Lost a good friend.

among other things.

2011 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS:

- Have the best fucking second semester in the history of second semesters. Tall order.

- Either: Bike a Century (100 miles), or run a marathon during second semester.

- Grow some balls, and make the first move!

- Get back in touch with Valencia buddies! I miss them.

- GROW!...

- P90X...............................forreal.

- Get better at guitar

- Find a creative outlet for when I'm yeffed.

- Dream log. Learn how to lucid dream.

- Read the Economist, stay up to date on world news.

- Find the right college for me.

- Do everything I want to do here before leaving. Tie all loose ends together.

- Have a damn good start to college.

- See the good in people, as much as possible, as hard as that may be.

- Stay positive. Keep my regrets at a minimum.

- Continue to figure myself out.

Lots of resolutions this year.

Let's fuck shit up, 2011.

Deferred

2010-12-13T21:49:00.000-08:00

Got home, nervous as a shit.

Before I'm even out of the car, I look to my mailbox. Nothing's poking out of it.

So that means that it either has not come, or I am rejected/ deferred.

I open the mailbox, and for a moment, I think I got in. I see a packet.

I look closer, and it turns out it's just a packet that Arizona State University sent me. What the fuck. I should not have checked that box requesting college information on the sophomore PSAT... annoyances go past just random college emails now.

So in my other hand, there's a stack of regular letter sized envelopes. I start sifting through them, hoping not to see Bowdoin.

But there it is. Small envelope.

I drop the rest of the mail.

"Dear Andrew:

The Admissions Committee has completed its evaluations of this year's Early Decision applications, and has voted to defer a final decision on your candidacy..."

I think I'm taking it okay. I don't need comfort or whatever. It is what it is. Hopefully the letter will be different in April. (Else, Bowdoin will have shitted on my birthday too)

So then my sister called. It started out with tactless words of "comfort." (Maine's a shitty place, etc.) Keep in mind, I still do love Bowdoin.

And then she proceeded to give me a lecture about how I need to get my shit together, and how I haven't had my shit together, and how I never listen to her.

She's right. But... I mean, shit. I just got deferred. It feels like a rejection. I'm trying to think that it'll all work out, and that it's no big deal. I'm trying to calm the fuck down. And then a full blown attacking lecture?

I honestly felt pretty cornered and beat up.

I hung up, punched the wood panels over my head on the bunk bed.

I have some cuts on my right hand now. Maybe that wasn't so smart.

I submitted 3 apps today. Vanderbilt, Middlebury, and Wesleyan. No supplemental essays. Yay.

ldsksdfl

I don't even know, man. I don't even know.

12/12. Yes

2010-12-13T00:06:00.000-08:00

In a truly Dazed and Confused manner, we lived up to what being a Senior’s about.

Sunday night, the day before a gov test? Who gives a fuck.

Revelations

Food

Being a kid again

Moral qualms

Heart to hearts, no homo/no sentimental

Adventure, searches, avatar or halo?

Nature (AWESOME TREEEEES)

So many things that could have gone wrong - nothing that did go wrong. Ultimately, Didactic obstacles that worked themselves out

.

Tomorrow should be the big day. But in all honesty, after tonight, (or at least right now) I think everything does happen for a reason…I just straight up found a leaf in my hair… Anyways, sure I’ll be fuckin’ sad if I get rejected from Bowdoin. But it’ll have happened for a reason. And after tonight, I’m sure things will work out eventually. Maybe not in the way I thought or hoped, but they will.

But hey, if it does work out the way that I think/hope it to, I’m pretty damn fine by that too.

WHY BOWDOIN, WHY?

2010-12-09T21:40:00.000-08:00

I come home and the first thing my dad says to me is, “Mail from Bowdoin came for you.”

I am not amused. “Dad, that’s not funny. That’s not funny, Dad. Not cool.”

He’s on the treadmill pointing to the table vigorously. I get to the kitchen table and find a small envelope. It’s tiny - even smaller than a regular letter envelope.

At first I think to myself, nahhhh maybe it’s from some random department with info about the campus? And then I saw that it was from Bowdoin Admissions.

I started freaking out. “Ah fuck.” It’s a small envelope. That can’t be good… Fuck fuck fuck fuck. My hands are shaking as I rip it open.

It reads, “Dear Andrew:

Thank you for interviewing with-“

PHEW.

And so the wait continues.

Dream 11/20 - 11/21

2010-11-21T10:52:00.001-08:00

//Start

I'm playing golf with an elephant and an alien that looks human. The elephant's giving me shit 'cause idk how to play.

I look at my phone and pull up a hologram web browser and see that I can upgrade my phone. So then my phone automatically chooses to transform/upgrade to this silver/ orange phone called the Palm Prix. Then the alien that looks human tells me that the Palm Prix's having major problems and I should get a crappier phone even though the Palm Prix was supposed to be the shit. The hologram web browser says "long term software update" in the Palm Prix window, so I assume it means it'll be coming out with a software update to be fixing the bad stuff. The elephant has the same phone as me, and the alien has a blue version that looks similar but is completely different.

I get in a spaceship pod thing which is controlled by my cellphone. The problem is, my cellphone's having issues so I'm fucked once I get in space. It looks a lot like that scene in Star Trek when they go out of warp and Nero's waiting for 'em. There's a bunch of planets around us and they look like the spheres in the droid commercials because of their forcefields or somethin'. So there's like commotion everywhere, and I need to land on one of the planets, but my phone won't let me 'cause it's glitching. Every time I go into one of the forcefield shits my dashboard tells me my spaceship pod thing's losing power or somethin' crazy.

So then I fly toward these other ships that look like the star trek ships. I fly straight into this dark crevice, and all these weird space shit creatures start attacking my pod. I forgot how I got 'em off, but I showed those punks.

So then I go inside and it's the same elephant and alien, except they're in like, regal space clothes. And then the alien tells the elephant that he took the blue phone even though the elephant technically had rights to the phone 'cause the elephant's father died while on a mission. But since the elephant didn't plan to continue on his father's path of recycling, he lost his rights to the phone. And then the elephant got pissed 'cause he thought the alien was implying that he didn't care about the environment.

//End

That's all I remember.

Dream 11/16 - 11/17

2010-11-17T20:51:00.001-08:00

Okay, so this dream is super super long and I’m typing out every detail I can remember so yeah. It’s pretty boring now that I type it out all the way.

After I woke up, I realized that it’s pretty much an episode of Bones, and I’m the dude that gets framed.

//Start

I’m in my room watching a youtube video (wong fu weekends, I think) when I suddenly felt a sharp pain in the back of my ear. I feel the back of my ear and it turns out I got a paper cut. So I turn around slowly and freeze. Behind me are two figures. So at this point I’m like WTF… who’s in my room….. So then I turn around and it’s two filipino girls sitting criss cross applesauce on the ground, and so I scream “AHHH” and they scream “AHHH” and then they run out. As they run out, I think to myself, “Ah man, I hope they don’t go and kill someone ‘cause they have my blood on them…”

I’m in Brandon’s house now and I’m opening his cupboard looking for some choco-pies. Then Emily Deschanel from Bones walks in through his garage and tells me I’m under arrest for murder. And then I tell her I didn’t do it, but she puts handcuffs around my two index fingers and I’m like damnit. So then I tell her what really happened and she says she’ll look into it. I ask her to hurry ‘cause I have to go to FBLA nationals the next day and they’re going on the plane in a few hours.

After she leaves, I ask Brandon, Christian and his mom if they saw the filipino girls run out. (So it turns out I was in my room but it was in Brandon’s house, and the house is a cross between his old house and new house.) Christian says he just heard me scream on the second floor, and I was like hold up, there is no second story to your house. And then he points to a single step and goes like “yeah there is.” For some reason I feel really fed up with Christian and I’m like, “SERIOUSLY CHRISTIAN? YOU’RE CALLING THAT ONE STEP A SECOND FLOOR?”

Then after a while a tall black man in a peacoat walks in, and I recall that he was very well dressed. I ask him if he’s a policeman but he ignores me and starts walking through the house. And then behind him, his crew starts walking in too. They all look scary even though they’re wearing those light blue velvet track suits that old ladies wear when they exercise. Vince V. and Derek pop up outta nowhere next to me.

Then the scary tall black guy snaps, and tells one of us to turn off the radio ‘cause it’s playing Christmas music. So Vince V. starts walking toward the radio, and then the black guy goes like “WAIT.” and starts to fix the carpet ‘cause it has some folds in it. When he’s done, Vince starts toward the radio, and then the black guy goes like “What are you doing? I already turned it off.” BUT THE MUSIC’S STILL PLAYING. So we’re freaked out because this crazy guy is holding us hostage.

So we’re just standing there with no idea what’s going on. Out of nowhere, Derek throws a puff ball at the scary black guy and runs into Brandon’s kitchen which is pitch black. Then Vince V. follows him. The black guy gets that creepy serial killer scary smirk on his face and goes like “Aw, hell no, you gotta be kidding me,” and slowly starts to walk toward the dark kitchen.

And then I hear some commotion in there, and then Derek goes like “WTF WHERE’D HE GO, I CAN’T SEE HIM.” and then I chuckle to myself even though I’m balls scared ‘cause… black guy in the shadows… can’t see… lol… Then out of nowhere I hear Derek screaming and it’s really scary ‘cause I just hear a bunch of screaming and struggling and then I see the scary black guy walk out with his arm around Vince. I think he killed Derek… this part was really scary - pretty much a nightmare. Vince has a big bruise on his face, but looks fine other than that, and the scary black guy’s smiling and goes, “I like this guy. He’s tough.” And Vince smiles and says proudly, “I used my judo on him.”

We’re taken to this big warehouse looking thing and it turns out there’s gonna be a benefits show there later that night called “The Modern Show.” (idkwtf) At this point, it’s not so scary anymore and there’s just a lot of down time. For some reason the scary black guy likes me so he makes me an actor for a short skit in the show. I walk around sorta freely and see Corrie and Sarah chillin’. Lots of walking around and talking. Don’t remember much of this part, but it was damn detailed.

Vince L. (hostage too) is told by one of the gang members to go check out three books, and then he comes back with them. The gang member calls over to his boss, the scary black guy, and recommends this one book to him. I remember they had a really intellectual conversation, and I was like whoa, they’re chill minus the killing and stuff. But then the boss noticed that Vince L left finger prints on the book cover, and he got pissed at him. I’m not sure what happened, but I think Vince got backhanded. Scary.

Then Maverick (turns out he’s organizing the show) announces that it’s dress rehearsal time, and calls up me, Troy, and Vince L. I see Karina in the distance, and I jump up and down to get her attention. She sees me, and I tell her to tell Joseph to tell Troy and Vince to get on stage. The stage looks a lot like the FBLA state stage, and Joseph, Troy, and Vince all get up there. Idk why Joseph decided to hop on, but he did. Then I look down and see that Troy’s wearing Uggs… I call him a faggot, and he explains, “But they’re not actually Uggs. They’re a different brand but they’re of even higher quality! Plus there’s a zipper that goes down the front.” He unzips his boots, and it gets sorta awkward. We get off stage.

I see PSST practicing for the show, and then it all comes together. The two girls that cut my ear are in PSST and the gang that kidnapped me sponsors PSST for this show. I feel a lot of animosity toward PSST…

Fade

(I remember watching Community in my dream, but it didn’t actually happen in the dream, if that makes any sense. Anyways, Shirley got fired from her job as secretary of the school or something, even though she’s not secretary…”

SO SHIRLEY MARCHES IN OUT OF NOWHERE. She gets on stage and starts ranting about how she deserves to get her job back and was unfairly fired.

Then the show starts and it’s pretty good. I walk over to Sarah and Corrie, and Sarah’s doing her hw, and I think that’s odd.

THEN, the lights turn off and there’s this human rights group that pop up on the stage and starts a protest against the Toughluckers. (name of the gang that kidnapped me) I’m with all the other hostages in a line, and then the gang walks out and they block the stage by standing in front of us. Each gang member is assigned to watch one hostage. I look up, and MIKE JONES IS THERE. I’m sorta shocked, but then Mike goes like “don’t worry, we’re cool.” So then the hostages are taken by their gang member to the warehouse which is their hiding spot.

Mike and I are slower and by the time we get there, the warehouse is empty. I realize that the police probably found them and arrested everybody, so I tell Mike, “GO, RUN. You only joined this gang two months ago and you haven’t killed anyone. You have a bright life ahead of you. GO.” It was all very dramatic. Trust me.

So then I walk through the warehouse. It has a really eerie feeling and I’m super scared. Then Emily Deschanel pops up and tells me that I’m innocent. We have some witty dialogue, and it feels a lot like the end of an episode of Bones or CSI or something. I ask her as I’m getting dropped off at Brandon’s house if I get reimbursed for my time as a hostage since I could be at FBLA nationals and she tells me that I don’t get any compensation, and I actually have to pay the travel fees for the gang. It doesn’t make much sense.

//End

//Start Continuation

I’m on tumblr posting about the day, (very much like how I’m posting about my dream) and I notice that tumblr has this new feature that’s a lot like facebook IM called “Chatterbox.” I see that Sarah’s online and we talk and I tell her that I was actually a hostage when I was at the show earlier, and she’s like oh that’s sucks.

Yep.

//End Dream.

Pretty anticlimactic, but that was it. If you actually read this, then I sincerely apologize.

Tough Luck

2010-11-15T04:32:00.000-08:00

Tough Luck

Created by Andrew Yang and Brandon Choe

Featuring Vince Nguyen (and Jessica Chung)

Thank you Bryan Kojima for the camera, and thank you Alvin Kim for the lens.

Done in three days - two days to film, one additional day to edit

For my Early Decision arts supplement to Bowdoin.

I am actually quite pleased with how this turned out.

This is how it went down:

Weeks of brainstorming yielding no significant fruit
Originally intended to film something grungy. Guys in black suits.
Had a cool black and white with selective coloring concept idea, but it didn't work out.
I heard Sigur Ros - Untitled 3 on stereomood.com, which made me feel really emotional, no emotional.
Untitled 3 gave me the idea of a guy who's having a bad day - nothing huge, just little things going wrong - and then he goes to a park, sits down, and takes in the scenery. He gets cheered up from seeing ducks, little kids playing, and other cute shit.
We actually followed through with the park idea, and we got my friend, Joseph Suarez, to act for us on Thursday. We still didn't have the plot all figured out, but we got lots of B-roll good looking park footage.
While brushing my teeth, I came up with a fresh idea, drawing from the previous one.
Joseph couldn't film Friday 'cause he had to mow the lawn... so we got Vince.
Film Friday, film Saturday. Saturday was a LONG ASS day.
Edit Friday night, Saturday night, Sunday. Editing was a pain 'cause the preview window lagged, so I pretty much didn't get to see what I edited in realtime until I exported drafts. Full 1080p HD footage on a mediocre computer is a bitch to work with.
Done.

First real blog post in a long time.

I had switched to tumblr for relatively frequent random blurbs that would be wasting dashboard space on blogger.

That is all.

This blog is as good as dead.

2010-10-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

GG, Knox

2010-10-15T23:26:00.000-07:00

...............

The analogy I came up with:

So it's like the test comes up to me and goes like ey Andrew lemme give you a playful little punch. And I go, okay! I don't see how a playful punch can possibly go wrong...

So I walk up to the test, expecting a punch-

The test rapes me instead.

Sucks

Wait, stay here and have a drink of time

2010-10-11T23:52:00.000-07:00

Wait, before you split yourself in two

Future of Forestry - Traveler's Song

Today is a good day

2010-10-04T21:32:00.000-07:00

My schedule is going to be changed to

1st period free

3rd period physics (NO MORE AP)

5th period calc bc (KNOX)

NEW GUITAR

2010-09-23T19:41:00.000-07:00

Seagull 25th Anniversary Flame Maple

I shall name you Scuttle.

Hello Scuttle.

Dream 9/10/10 - 9/11/10

2010-09-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

I dreamed that I got rejected from every college I applied to.

Catchy Song

2010-09-05T19:23:00.000-07:00

Cee Lo Green - Fuck You

I am trying to become aware again

2010-09-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

I will resubscribe to the Economist tomorrow.

Aight aight.

MR. KOCI IS LEFT HANDED

2010-08-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

AND IT BUGS THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

YOU CAN'T READ HIS NOTE'S 'CAUSE HIS HAND'S ALWAYS IN THE FREAKIN' WAY.

AND THE HW IS FREAKIN' ALGEBRA 1 BUSYWORK

WHY

but this was otherwise a marvelous day. :D

SENIOR YEAR

2010-08-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

LET'S FUCK SHIT UP.

just kidding.

but not really.

yaknowww

A little frustrated

2010-08-27T20:49:00.001-07:00

The past few weeks have not been great.

Mammoth was horrible for me.

The morning of, I started feeling ridiculously cold. I was shivering, but I thought it was just a cold morning. Then, when we got in the car, I was still shivering when the other guys were actually feeling sorta warm. I fell into a brief uncomfortable nap, and when I woke up, I had a pounding headache and my whole body was sore.

At our first stop, I puked out everything I had.

As the drive went on, I started to feel progressively weaker since I had no food in me. At our second lunch stop, I nearly fainted coming out of the car. We were in the desert, it was super hot, I was wearing jeans, I had the worst headache, and I had no energy.

After having subway, I felt better.

When we got to our cabin, I puked again.

I was stuck in bed for 3 days. I was asleep for more hours than I was awake.

The next 3 days I could run, but I was still weak. It was the worst feeling ever not being able to lift my legs. I was the last one on each run, and the whole time I would think to myself, "This is taking way longer than it should. I'm breathing fine, why won't my legs move?" And every once in a while I try to speed up, but my legs give in. I'm still too weak. The worst part was probably the time trial, where everyone went as fast as they could and tested their limits. I physically couldn't do that.

The Friday run, though, was glorious. (for the first 5.5 miles) I found that I could finally lift my legs. On the warm up, I shouted, "I CAN MOVE! I CAN MOVE!" But I was still weak, and at about 7 or 8 miles, my legs gave in again. I finished the last few miles dirt slow. But that's okay. I still finished 11 miles. (Derek and I accidentally went past the 5 mile turnaround mark.)

Saturday morning, I noticed some weird red bumps on my feet. About 30 minutes into the drive back home, the bumps had spread to my arms and hands. I had hives all over my body. But the thing is, they didn't itch or hurt. They were just chillin' on my body.

So that was my Mammoth trip. It sorta sucked.

I went to the doctor's for a sports physical later, and the second he saw me, he said, "that's a virus, yo." So it turns out I had a virus. Great.

My parents and sister gave me a bunch of crap for going after I came back, saying it was a waste of time and that I've gone nowhere on my college essays. And the thing is, I can't argue because it pretty much was a waste of time. I got sick, had a pretty horrible time as a result, and didn't really benefit in any way from the trip.

I've been on lockdown and will continue to be until school starts. I missed out on Chomp's and I'm pretty damn bummed about that. (I didn't even ask) And I'll be missing the final hangout of the summer too. I asked my parents today and they both shot me down with very angry no's.

I think, that in their eyes, I've been partying everyday this summer/ ruining my future by not being done with college apps/essays.

That clearly has not been the case...

But that's okay. I can see why they're angry. I have nothing to show in terms of college essays so far. I went to the Yorba Linda Library today to check out some college essay books, and I feel pretty pumped to write.

I'll see you all on Monday.

67 Mile Ride (Ride, Crash, Ride some more, Pig out)

2010-08-10T23:07:00.000-07:00

With Agu, Kevin, and Phillip

What went down:

- Ride

- Pedal strike/ Crash

- Ride some more

- Pig out at The Hat

Wake up 4:30 AM

Out the door by 5:00 AM

Get to Kevin's at 5:15ish AM

It turns out Kevin and Phillip didn't quite know what they were doing with the San Gabriel trail... so after 40 minutes of discussion, we scrapped that as the ride for the day, and decided on something else: Back Bay in Newport

We headed out at 6:15, and the ride itself was pretty fun. I was reminded again that I am, indeed, out of shape. That's okay though. I'm gettin' back into it.

Parts of today's ride: (Give or take .5 mi here and there)

3 to Kevin's house

5 to start of S.A. River Trail

16ish on S.A. River Trail

9 on PCH out to Back Bay

9 back from Back Bay

16ish mi. back on S.A. River Trail

6 to Kevin's girlfriend's house (including Yorba Linda trail)

3 back home

The Crash:

I ate shit HARD.

So when we got to our destination at Back Bay, we sat around and rested for a bit, and then turned back around. On the way back, there was a steepish hill going down.

Pedal strike, pedal strike, pedal strike.

On a fixed gear bike, there's risk of something called "pedal strike."

Since fixed gears have a direct drive with the chain and back wheel, if the wheels are moving forward, so are the cranks. The rider is constantly pedaling. So sometimes, on a sharp turn, the pedal hits the ground. This launches the bike (and its rider) forward.

Anyways, on the hill coming down, that happened to me. My pedal struck the ground hard, and I was going at probably 30 mph downhill, so I flew. Literally. But not steezy elegant eagle flew. More like little birdie with a screwed up wing so he flies but ends up crashing kind of flew.

My bike flipped over, and my body launched off of my bike and turned. I ended up around 6-7 feet in front of my bike after the impact.

I landed on the street straight on my back, bounced, slammed the back of my head, and rolled.

I have 6 scrapish cuts, and one of 'ems a good 2.5 inches in diameter on my back above my butt. The other scrapes are just regular scabs, and that's cool, but the big one on my back STILL isn't scabbing over. It's just light pink/white. Annoying.

My helmet saved me, 'cause the impact was hard enough to crack/chip the back part slightly.

If I wasn't wearing my helmet, I'd definitely have a bad concussion/ bleeding/ knocked out. SO THERE JOSEPHINE, SAFETY FIRST.

My bag helped out a lot too, since it cushioned the impact/ bounce. My track bag has a bunch of tears and holes on it from the impact, but if it wasn't my track bag, it would've been my shirt and skin. So that's good.

All in all, I got really lucky. Again.

I'm gonna get 165 mm cranks and a front brake soon (not that a front brake would've helped. I just figure it's smart to have one, and I should get one if I'm gonna keep biking.)

The ride back sorta sucked since my cuts stung like crazy. They'd dry/scab over while I was in a hunched riding position, and then when I straightened up, the fresh scabs would crack again. And the cut on my ankle kept chafing against my shoe.

And I was just effing tired.

In the end, we came short by 3 miles (Goal was 70), but we were all too tired to care...

AND THEN FOOD AT THE HAT MAAFAKAAAA

Onion rings and chili cheese fries. woooo.

And then RED CLIFF WITH JOHNNY AND ALICIA.

MOST EPIC SHIT EVER

Pretty excited for 70-90 mile bike ride tomorrow

2010-08-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

From 5 AM 'til who knows when.

Let's hope we don't get lost, even though Kevin says there's a 95% chance we will.

That's okay.

Where's the sun?

2010-07-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

..HERE comes the sun!

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Anyways, this song is damn fun. I will practice.

So the title of this post isn't just my lame joke. It's sorta relevant.

This morning I went to cross country practice at 7am. Beach run - trail and boardwalk.

It was cold as a shit and there was no sun.

So yeah. If you don't like my hilarious joke, there's an alternate explanation.

So basically, I am ridiculously ridiculously super duper out of shape...
Before Thursday I had not run since before internship.. so a good (bad) 3 and a half weeks.

The only real exercise I had in those weeks was one GOOD cycling machine workout at the hotel during NLC, one decent one, and a beach bike ride last saturday. But no runs.

So this Thursday when I took the day off since my sister was leaving, I went to practice.

I only did a 6 mile workout when everyone else was doing a 9 total - 3 warmupish, 3 indian run/speed, 3 cooldownish.

I felt sorta out of it but it was good that coach had me do a separate workout 'cause I realized I was waaay out of shape.

Friday I didn't run 'cause I was a lazy shit.

So TODAY.

Coach told me to do 60 minutes only, and that was the plan, but I felt pretty good at 30 minutes so I ran to the pier.

10 miles total. Ended up at around 77 minutes... I need to get faster in the next two weeks...

Going from... pretty much nothing to 10 miles was a big jump though, and now my quads are shot.

I'm gonna keep running when I can for the next two weeks before mammoth though. I'm really hoping I can get back in shape 'cause I'm way behind the rest of the varsity guys. They were hauling ass today for 12 miles.

Actually... Ibanez AEL50SERLV?

2010-07-30T15:47:00.000-07:00

actually thinking about buying this instead of saving up/ waiting for the Seagull Performer Flame Maple

Change in Routine, Dream 7.28.10

2010-07-29T21:58:00.001-07:00

1. Dream Log

I started in the beginning of summer... with one dream.

Recently, I've been remembering my dreams a bit more clearly, and they're actually sorta cool.

I don't remember too much from last night's, but here are some parts:

I was looking for some mythical fairy woman named Persepolis. Ask my dream why her named was Persepolis 'cause I have no idea why. Now that I look it up, it's a movie that I had looked up after coming across it on rotten tomatoes or something. Weird how my mind decided to dig up that name.

Anyways, I found her inside a shallow well that was some warp to some sparkly stuff. I stuck out a spoon and dove to enter that fairy world shit. She was good lookin'.

Yeh.

I was walking through a town and came up to this fountain looking thing in a park. After I had walked up the steps, I looked around and the fountain changed. It became this.. floating cube-like structure with waterfalls streaming down the four sides. The steps disappeared. It was beautiful.

For some reason, I'm associating bikes with the memory of this dream as I think back, and I don't know why. To get out, I think I dove and the second I submerged in the water, I ended up in a room with friends, watching a movie, like a late night hangout sorta deal.

It was all very surreal.

So yeah. I'm gonna start again.

2B. Learn how to lucid dream

I had wanted to learn how to do this before, when I first read about it. After keeping up with a dream log, I think I'll have really good dream recall within two or three weeks. On the way there, I'm going to do what I can to lucid dream.

3. Keep running

Mammoth is in 2 weeks. I gotta fuckin' get back in shape.

I have no time after I come back from internship 'cause I get back at around 9:20 PM each day, and then I gotta eat dinner... digest... no time to run at night.

That means I'm gonna have to wake up in the morning at 6:30ish AM to have time to do AT LEAST 4 miles or something, write in my dream log, and shower.

4. Seagull Performer Cutaway Flame Maple guitar

This is the guitar for me. No Ibanez, no other seagulls. I want this one.

I'm gonna keep looking on ebay or craigslist for one that comes up cheaper than the $699 list price. I've seen two sell for about $400some. I'll wait til another one comes up.

4B. Practice guitar

Until I get my new guitar, I'm gonna keep practicing with my shit $15 chinese guitar. But that's okay.

5. Grow some balls.

6. Grow.

7. Keep up with this blog.
I never really find reason to blog anymore since each day seems to be pretty much the same... I guess I won't be posting how I used to post with my useless summary of my day, but I think I'll try to find something significant in each day to share.
Or maybe not.
Mmm.

That is all.

I am going to buy a guitar.

2010-07-23T23:57:00.001-07:00

Seagull Performer Flame Maple Cutaway QI

acoustic/electric

Beautiful, sounds great, and expensive

Seagull Original S6

acoustic

Plain lookin', sounds great, and reasonably priced

Ibanez EW50MPSE (Exotic Wood Series, Monkeypod)

acoustic/electric

Beautiful, idk how it sounds yet, and reasonably-ish priced

all solid top

I ate dinner with a bird today.

2010-07-07T22:41:00.001-07:00

Nothin' too interesting today. I continued to work on the improved casting reel.

I got off work at 5:30, but I ended up missing the 6:30 train... I forgot that the 6:30 one was a metrolink orange county line instead of amtrak pacific surfliner, so I was waiting for the surfliner, and when I realized and figured out where the OC line was,

I ran out just as the train left...

So I wanted to walk instead of bus/subway since I haven't had a chance to really walk in downtown LA. I asked some guy which way wilshire was, and if it was close... I think he was half crazy 'cause he gave me wrong directions... and then it turns out another guy I asked later gave me wrong directions too...

I was gonna meet up with Brandon but I was half lost, so that was a bust.

When i got back to union station, I got a breakfast burrito at the bagel place, and sat down at a table.

I take a bite out of my burrito, look up, and I see a bird perched on the chair across from me, looking at me. I proceeded to eat my dinner with the bird. Birds are nice company.

Spending the night at Brandon's apartment tomorrow.

And on a side note, I hate going between mac/pc... Using command instead of ctrl is annoying at work, and when I get home, using ctrl instead of alt (where command should be) is annoying.

Collins Ave. Day 2 - Finished Casting Reel, Let yourself feel.

2010-07-03T00:03:00.001-07:00

Normal commute today. Phew.

Lunch with Ms. Stalley and Alex.

Luna Park:

17 dollar lunch special consisting of a drink, starter or dessert, and entree or sandwich.

I ordered:

Artichoke with lemon adjijad (buttery thing) dip. $8ish

Dublin original Dr. Pepper. $4.50

Grilled salmon over angel hair noodles. $12

so it should've cost around 25...

but there was the lunch special so it was 17,

BUT

it's 4th of July weekend and Alex looked up their twitter and found that the "password" was "independence."

50 % OFF. YEAHHHHHH

so ALL of that cost $8.50.

I finished the casting reel for the reality show today. I didn't find out that we had to get it overnight fed-exed by 5:30 until like... 4:30.

I guess Mike didn't quite realize either? Idk, the deadline just wasn't made clear.

I had wanted to do some basic stuff on after effects just for more options with the text and flow, but I was stuck with iMovie 'cause of the time.

So I finished up... well I didn't even finish. I was forced to start the burning process 'cause we had to leave the office by like 5:25 with four copies of the DVD...

So I didn't finish last minute stuff, and I didn't even get a chance to proof-watch it.

It still turned out o.k. though. Mike said that this might just be a first draft sorta deal, and that I'll have time next week to smooth things over.

It's going to Spike TV in New York...

But yeah. I'm really glad I'm getting to intern at Collins. The atmosphere's pretty chill. There's a lot of work, but I don't mind it. And this reality tv business is interesting.

Yarp.

I came across this today during down time after the casting reel was due.

Amazing.

This actually like, feels inspirational...

Trapcode Particular plug-in with Soundkey on After Effects. Crazy what you can do.

let yourself feel. from Esteban Diácono on Vimeo.

That is all.

Collins Ave. Day 1 - Missed Train, Faded Guy, Pretty Girl, Strangely Happy

2010-07-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

So my train was running 10 minutes late, and as a result I missed the first subway/bus transfer to Collins Avenue.

But thasokay, I just took the next ones.

It was pretty exciting to be taking the train, subway, and bus. Something about it feels lively and in the city.

Then I got to Wilshire/La Brea at 9:58 and proceeded to take a wonderful, gigantic poopoo at Starbucks before walking into internship at 10:05.

Internship was pretty awesome.

I wore dress shirt, no tie, and slacks just for the first day. I think I'm allowed to wear jeans/casual... score!

Right now we're trying to get a network to pick up this reality show about a gun shop in charlotte. Linxi, another intern there who I have yet to meet, had edited 3 and a half minutes of a rough start to the casting reel, and I sorta added onto that and tried to refine it a little.

It was really... idk, interesting to see that from a perfectly normal conversation, you can make one person seem totally crazy just by picking lines and moments and isolating them.

I hate macs. With a passion. :'(

I was editing on imovie today, and even though it makes some things that would be more complicated on after effects more simple, it's TOO user friendly... like since I have experience with more complicated stuff like after effects or premiere, I definitely work faster with more control and precision functions, even though it might be more effort to make a simple gradient title card.

I actually don't understand why after effects doesn't have simple plug ins like the imovie effects... like something as simple as a button click in imovie would take a decent amount of time in AE.

BUT, imovie doesn't compare. don't even think that I was thinking that.

'CAUSE I WASN"T, DAWG. I WASN'T.

Lunch with Alex.

Umami Burger.

Holy damn, it was delicious. But expensive. 10 dollars for a burger, and 3 dollars for literally 6 onion rings.

But I would say that it was actually... maybe worth it? The burger wasn't even huge.. it was a good size, but not 10 dollar huge.

BUT IT WAS GOOOOOD.

Onion Rings: It was like tempura onion rings... delicious..

Fries: nothin' special at all.

BURGER:

The patty on the burger was literally like a steak. It was seasoned and thick and juicy and cooked medium rare.

There was a single mushroom in the middle of the burger. The juices from the mushroom seeped into every bite.

A parmesan crisp cheese flake thing. Crispy and interesting take on cheese.

Smoky barbecue-esque sauce

Sweet tomatoes, basil sun-dried taste, without the dried part.

Got off work at 7:10.

Anyways, here's where things get bad...

I took the wrong bus... I took the 20 toward Santa Monica when I should've taken the 20 toward Down Town LA.

My commute in the morning didn't spend long on Wilshire, so I wasn't too familiar, and the bus was #20 too, so I didn't notice or check... Idk what was going on through my mind.

I took the bus all the way down to the last stop. And then I realized... DAMN

So then I got on the other side and took the 20 back toward Wilshire/Vermont.

My train was at 8:30. MISSED IT.

It was 8:00 by the time I got on the new bus.

8:30ish by the time I got off at Wilshire/Vermont. (I actually missed Vermont again 'cause I was talking to my dad on the phone. Luckily I asked the bus driver as soon as I hung up. Luckily I only walked two blocks back.)

So then I took the subway redline and got to union station at 9. Dinner at subway.

Next train.... 10:10 PM.

So there's a line for the Pacific Surfliner southbound in the lobby area.

Two things made that 45 minute wait bearable, and even pleasant.

1. Guy that was really really high

2. One of the prettiest girls I've ever seen

High Guy

So basically, this guy was standing impatiently in line and fidgeting and stuff, and then he started walking up and down the line and greeting random people and going like "duuuuuuude... what's up..." and randomly shouting "THIS WAIT FUCKIN' SUCKS"

and I didn't really notice him too much until he approached me. He was kinda just staring at me for a while I guess, and then I noticed and looked at him and his eyes were huge and he had his hand out. I shook his hand and knuckle bumped him.

High guy: Duuuuuude... what's up man... how's it goin'

Me: I'm doing pretty good, how 'bout you?

High guy: I am GREAT except for the FUCKIN WAIT.

Me: LOL. (I realize he smells like alcohol, and that he's probably faded)

High guy: Duuude... what's your name?

Me: I'm Andrew, how 'bout you?

High guy: Matt... it's a fuckin' pleasure man.

Me: Dude, are you faded?

High guy: FUCK YEAH I'M FADED. DUUUUDE I SMOKED SO MUCH WEEEEEED :D :D :D

Me: LOL.

And then he kept being loud and funny. Like the security people in the cart things came to pick up people with heavy baggage or handicapped people, and the faded guy was like I NEED A RIDE. and they were like "sir, you're completely healthy and your bag is small. let these other people through." and he was like "AHHH FUCKKKKK MAN THIS IS BULLSHIT. MAN. It's cool though...."

and then he started asking around who else was headed to San Diego.

He went up to this group of people and he was like "WHO'S GOING TO SAN DIEGO???"

and when nobody answered him, he pointed at this guy and he was like "Well I know you are..." (he was evesdropping earlier) and then he put his arm around this other guy and he was like "how 'bout you?..."

idk, it was hilarious. ahaha

Pretty Girl

She was ridiculously pretty. So, so, pretty. Like, WORTH MENTIONING ON MY BLOG EVEN THOUGH THIS SEEMS CREEPER.

That's how pretty she was.

Idk why I get the feeling she's Israeli. I have no idea why I would think that but I think she is.

Like Natalie Portman-like, but not really, but sorta.

yadadadamean?

nah, ya don't.

'CAUSE YOU DIDN'T SEE HER.

But yeah, for some reason, just seeing her put me in a good mood. Literally, I was like ":D :D Thank you for being pretty."

Well, I didn't say that, but yaknow.

No creeper.

...

Listened to happy music on the train ride back to Fullerton.

Home at 11.

So even though I feel like I should be feeling frustrated and cranky for getting home at 11, instead of an already late 9,

I'm in a damn good mood! :D

I think it was literally just seeing the girl that set that off...

... :D :D :D

Goooooooooood night,

and I'm once again back to blogging.

FUCK YOU INCONVENIENTLY TIMED PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION

2010-06-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

I'm starting internship tomorrow in LA.

Collins Ave. Production Company.

Here's how my day's looking:

8:14 AM Pacific Surfliner Train from Fullerton

Subway and bus transfers

Arrive at Collins Ave at 9:30ish AM

Kill time,

Start work at 10 AM

Work until 6 PM

Take either 6:09 or 6:22 subway/bus to LA Union Station

Arrive either 6:44 or 6:53

Wait until 8:30 for Pacific Surfliner Train from LA

Arrive at Fullerton Station at 9:02 PM

Yep.

So the only trains going from LA to home are at either 6:30 or 8:30.

The thing is, since I'm taking public transportation, I can't travel 7 miles in 30 minutes.

My dad won't let me take my bike with me (biking from Collins to train station would solve the problem). I suppose that's reasonable? I guess I'd be worried too.

So yeah. That's what my days are lookin' like.

I never feel like blogging anymore

2010-06-28T23:26:00.000-07:00

I have a good deal to say,

But I won't.

I am so ridiculously tired and sore

2010-06-22T21:29:00.000-07:00

that I am not going to blog about yesterday or today even though they are blog-worthy.
At least for now.
But probably for good.
'cause yaknow
I'll get lazy.
and stuff.
yadadadamean?
yadadadamean.

Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love

2010-06-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

Delafé y Las Flores Azules

Well I have no idea what kind of music people expect me to listen to... but this is a spanish song... idk. Haha

Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure

2010-06-19T21:43:00.000-07:00

Cobra Starship - Guilty Pleasure
ha. ha. ha. I am punny.

Day 12 - A song from a band you hate

2010-06-19T21:37:00.000-07:00

Atreyu - Bleeding Mascara
I don't understand how this kind of music can be appealing. I just don't.

Eat Day.

2010-06-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

Today was basically a nonstop day of eating...

I woke up at 10:44 and ate breakfast, which consisted of some chinese soupish thing with dates, lychee, and eggs.

At 1ish, I had a california burrito from Pepe's and some of my sister's subway turkey sandwich.

At 3, Alicia picked me up and we went to wingstop so that I could watch her eat. I ate 1 lemon pepper wing and helped her out with the fries.

Then we picked up Brandon and got patbingsu from Mochilato.

Chilled at Barnes and Nobles, looked at photo magazines.

Then Alicia dropped me off at home at 6:30 so I could have a family dinner.

Ate more.

woooooooo.

Day 11 - A song from your favorite band

2010-06-13T21:33:00.000-07:00

Oasis - Listen Up

Whenever anyone says "listen up" now, I tend to cut in with the lyrics to this song. So this is me apologizing ahead of time for those interruptions. Sorry.

The tough part's over.

2010-06-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

Friday was pretty much the last hurdle of junior year.

I think I did well on the calc test. (KNOCK ON WOOD)
All I can do now is hope hope hope for a good grade. I need a really high A on that test just to get a B- in the class...

I haven't gotten many yearbook signatures at all... I need to remember to bring it and pass it around during class.

.

After school on Friday, Philip bitched enough to get me to stay after school for the swing dance thing so he could get 5 points ec. I was tired from running and wanted to just relax and go hang out with Valencia people before the Upbeat Benefit Concert... but yeah... swing dance instead. damn. s'alright though. You're welcome Philip.

Picked up Joseph, got california burritos from Pepe's. Effing delicious little piece of delicious. Double wrapped, french fries, melted cheese, guacamole, salsa, sour cream, carne asada, MORE DENSE THAN A BLACK HOLE MAAFAKAAA.
Yummy.

Upbeat Benefit Concert:

Dante and Stephanie were awesome. DOWOOOOOORK DANTE.

Kevin Lien (He's in a bunch of ice1cube's videos.) was awesome too. It was sorta cool 'cause I listened to his speakabox stuff on myspace in like, 8th grade. His billionaire cover was sick.

Kris Mark coooooooooool.

Roman Alexander and the Robbery. awesome.

Too bad I was effing tired during the concert though... man.

Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep

2010-06-12T15:43:00.000-07:00

Priscilla Ahn - Lullaby

Okay. All caught up.

Day 09 - A song that you can dance to

2010-06-12T15:36:00.000-07:00

Vinyl Shakerz - One Night in Bangkok (remix)

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to

2010-06-12T15:34:00.001-07:00

Train - Drops of Jupiter

CAN YOU IMAGINE NO LOVE, PRIDE, DEEP FRIED CHICKEN

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event

2010-06-12T15:21:00.000-07:00

Green Day - Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)

I'm balls scared for the calc test tomorrow.

2010-06-11T00:46:00.001-07:00

I need like an A+ on the test for a B- in the class.
And I'm blanking like a maaafaakaa on everything right now.
fuck fuck fuck.

A SLUG IS STRAIGHT UP CHILLING ON THE WINDOWSILL INSIDE MY HOUSE.

2010-06-09T00:44:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE FUCK

Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere

2010-06-08T22:51:00.000-07:00

The Beatles - Octopus's Garden
This song reminds me of an octopus's garden.

Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone

2010-06-07T18:11:00.000-07:00

The first song that came to my mind was "She Moves In Her Own Way" by the Kooks, but I've already used it sooooo...

Billy Talent - Surrender

The story with this one goes back to middle school. (I guess back when I listened to bands with higher voices.) I had been so sure that this song pertained to me in every way. I thought it matched my situation between me and _____ perfectly.

Even though I know what I'm lookin' for
She's got a brick wall behind her door
I'd travel time and confess to her
But I'm afraid she'd shoot the messenger

Looking back,

How embarrassing...

The world took a shit on my face today

2010-06-07T17:21:00.000-07:00

multiple times.

FUCK.

I wonder how many times I've said "fuck" today.

I can't say this has been one of the worst days since idk. I can't really say that something horrible has happened to me. I'd be a shit to say so.

But I was just really unlucky today. And there's so much on my mind that's worrying me and stressing me out.

I'm gonna type it out 'cause I think it'll help me to keep tabs...

Don't read if you don't want to. It's basically me being a shit and complaining.

- I need to get one of my absences excused in calc. I can't lose a credit.

- The odds that I will end up getting a C in calc are high.

- Editing apush video with shit footage, mediocre storyline, and not much to work off of.

- apush video group issues. brief quarrel. hypocrisy (on all our parts)

- I didn't realize I had a spanish final until 2nd period today.

- The spanish final violated me to the moon. There goes my last shot at an A... in any class?

- Lambert was a hoe and didn't let me turn in my mock interview signature form because I didn't hear her call us up to turn it in the first time

- Internship forms not signed yet

- Downum isn't responding to email

- Pedal strike on the way back from school. It wasn't a bad one, thank god, but it was scary. Almost fell off.

- Didn't eat breakfast or lunch today.

- I forgot that I didn't eat and went on a run during 6th. Felt like shit.

- Had to stay after school for a while trying to transfer footage from Brandon's SD to my flash drive.

- Computer issues with the transfer.

- Biked home so I could transfer it to my computer because school computer wasn't working and then I biked back to school to give SD card back to Brandon.

Thanks Brandon for letting us use your camera and card. Sorry if I seemed like an impatient ungrateful little shit. It was your kindness that let us use your stuff. Thanks.

Edit: No sentimental^

Day 04 - A song that makes you sad

2010-06-06T21:32:00.000-07:00

Oasis - Cast No Shadow

This actually took a really long time to pick... There were a bunch of random depressing songs that I was listening to and I kept trying to choose. And although this song isn't exactly the saddest sounding, I think the message is as sad as a song can be without being morbid - especially since it's something everyone can relate to, I think.

"Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to stay
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow

As they took his soul they stole his pride

As he faced the sun he cast no shadow"

Day 03 - A song that makes you happy

2010-06-05T22:52:00.000-07:00

The Kooks - She Moves In Her Own Way
This song never ceases to make me smile. It could also go in the "a song that reminds you of someone" category, but I think it fits here better.

Frustrating Days

2010-06-05T22:48:00.000-07:00

seem to be abundant lately.

On a lighter note, FUCK YES. I have a legitimate highly probable knock on mothereffing wood chance at an A in Spanish.........

So my semester grades will be bad, not ass bad.

Day 02 - Least Favorite Song

2010-06-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

Soulja Boy - Crank That

This song is absolute shit. That is all.

Jin/Josephine Inspired 30 day song shit (Song List Day I)

2010-06-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

Day 01 - Your favorite song

Oasis - The Masterplan

It still blows me away that this is one of their B-sides... Only Oasis.

Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03- A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Reasonably shitty day/ cologne???

2010-06-03T23:46:00.000-07:00

So I slept for 14 and a half hours last night. I literally got home at 3:30 PM and knocked out until 6 AM. I woke up 3 times though.

Once when Michelle called me. I guess I sounded really tired when I picked up though 'cause she told me to sleep and hung up haha.

Then my mom called me to check if my cousin was home yet and I got up and went downstairs and opened the backyard and he was home but forgot his keys... yep.

And then my dad walked in at night and asked if I had any hw and I said no.

This morning I forgot to bring my tripod for apush... and under normal circumstances I think I would've just whatevered and sorry'd but. idk.

I got to school at 7 on the dot when I remembered so I biked home to get it and I got home at 7:12 and I figured it was way too late to be walking into zero period 'cause I'd get there at 7:25 best case scenario.

So I took the ride back to school pretty easy. A bigass fly flew straight into my left eyeball while it was open and then I blinked hard and I think I squished it or something idk. It was nasty though. I kinda knew it would be a bad day when that happened... I sorta had a feeling.

Apush filming...

.....................................

Idk.

I just felt shittier than usual.

And then after school I had my mom call in for me but the attendance office wouldn't clear it because I didn't check in after zero........

So that's unexcused absence #4

= loss of credit

=???

Idk what that means. Well I know I get 4 credits instead of 5 but does that affect ONLY graduation? Or does that mean that it counts like I will only have 3 years of math at the end of senior year or wha...

Quick tutor but not really session with Vince. Gave him all my old SAT stuff and told him to review the PRONOUN lesson 'cause pronouns are maaaaaFAAKAAAAS before you legitly learn 'em.

---

Mr. THS was fun.

Sorry for ditching you for the last segment, Josephine. I totally thought you knew I was going down there... 'cause I said it... idk. Sorry.

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And I wore cologne for the first time today...

My sister bought me it for 20 bucks at Jeremy's even though it's usually $75 at sephora or some place or something.

Cannabis Santal, no it does not smell like weed.

I felt like a fruit today wearing it. But I sweat like a shit today anyway since I biked back and forth between school and home and crap today.

So idk.

Maybe it's not a coincidence that the day I start wearing cologne was a shittier than usual day.

Maybe it's God's way of telling me not to wear cologne.

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Now that's bloggin'. I'm back.

That is all.

No reason stress

2010-05-31T22:50:00.001-07:00

I re-realized how much it sucks to edit video projects.

Spanish due Wednesday.

When I turned on the printer, it started going crazy and printing out a bunch of pages that I had never printed, so I assumed my sister printed them. I asked my sister and she said she did, but a couple months ago.......

I pressed cancel, but then the printer started printing out distorted barcodes over and over no matter how many times I pressed cancel.

So then I realized that maybe the last time my sister was home she queued a bunch of prints that never got printed. Sure enough, she had 70some pages on the printer queue on her computer.

So the printer wasted like 20 something pages.

I have no idea why but that made me feel so stressed. I seriously felt like each paper the printer was spitting out was like a new problem. Idk.

It was kind of ridiculous.

I was stressed for no reason.

Stupid.

I give up on bio.

SAT II can suck it too I guess...

Editing Spanish.

This all sucks.

Winter Winds

2010-05-31T01:59:00.000-07:00

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts
Oh the warmth in your eyes swept me into your arms
Was it love or fear of the cold that led us through the night?
For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

We'll be washed and buried one day my girl
And the time we were given will be left for the world
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"
Yes, my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

Oh the shame that sent me off from the God that I once loved
Was the same that sent me into your arms
Oh and pestilence is won when you are lost and I am gone
And no hope, no hope will overcome

And if your strife strikes at your sleep
Remember spring swaps snow for leaves
You'll be happy and wholesome again
When the city clears and sun ascends

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

Manfume for Brandon?

2010-05-28T22:46:00.000-07:00

So today I woke up at 5:47 to Josephine calling me and I started freaking out because I realized that I fell asleep studying bio last night and legitimately knew next to nothing...

Calc: I realized today that I might actually end up with a C at the end of the semester. I have a 77.1 right now and there's only one test left... Idk. I felt like I could do it at first but then today Brandon was like you have to get 100 on everything from here on out and then I saw Christian and I was like yo do you think I can do it and he was like, "honestly... nah..."

Pretty much during break, "fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck" was all I was saying.

I played dots with Paulina and connect four with Joe in English today. Dots is probably the most stressful game I've ever played even though it's not supposed to be stressful haha. Paulina owned me.

Bio test.........

Destroyed me.

Ngo sprung 20 fill in the blank diagram questions on us......... for one of the diagrams, I wrote bowman's capsule twice and loop of henle like 8 times. So hopefully I got like, 2 out of however many for that diagram.

The test itself was damn hard too. Idk if that was lack of studying orwha 'cause I think a lot of other people got effed too.

Goodbye possible A in bio. Maybe in another life, we'll get to know each other.

Got yearbook. It's cooooool

After school, Brandon, Monique, and I went to Brandon's hosue and ate spam and rice and seaweed. Yay.

Then we were planning to go see Macgruber but Monique suddenly got out of movie mood so we went to the mall 'cause Brandon wanted to buy some man-perfume.

I was sorta surprised to hear that so many girls like manfume on guys. Idk if it's 'cause I have a bad sense of smell or wha, but I never felt like smells meant much. (as long as it's not shit stank or something)

Brandon went to Sephora (HAAAA) to look for manfume. Monique was helping him out and they were spraying the crap everywhere. Brandon sprayed me like a billion times.

That's one of my pet peeves - getting sprayed with perfume crap.

Anyways, so we walked out of Sephora smelling like a big ball of smell. And it was really REALLY strong 'cause I could smell it. and my sense of smell is horrible. Brandon had it the worst.

Jamba Juice after Monique (aka Monica?) left.

Thank you Jesus is good.

Antipromish hangout tomorrow at the beach.

For some reason, I'm not super excited even though I'm sure it'll be fun.

I feel like my emotions are dulled lately.

FUCKKKK WHY.

that is all.

Tremble, Little Lion Man

2010-05-27T21:13:00.001-07:00

Mumford and Sons. Amazing.

I got into ASB appointed today. Woohoo. So next year I'll just have one free fifth period.

We finished Cinderella Man in APUSH today. "STAY AWAY FROM HIS RIGHT, JIMMY." I've been pretend boxing the air and slowmo boxing people all day haha. I wanna watch Million Dollar Baby soon. I'm in a boxing mood.

...

I've been feeling down and frustrated and bottled up lately.

I'm so sick and tired of school.

Internship issue still hasn't been resolved.

I wish I could take back that month and a half.

Blogging doesn't feel natural anymore.

Eh.

So come out of your cave

2010-05-26T22:58:00.000-07:00

Mumford and Sons - The Cave

This song like... I don't know how to describe it. It sorta like. Not quite inspired... that's too strong. but.

It's made me feel different.

Reminded me a lot of the allegory of the cave...

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

I'm a mess

2010-05-26T18:04:00.000-07:00

I feel like everything's going down hill...

2010-05-24T16:50:00.001-07:00

I just found out that my internship offer was for the second half of summer. It starts July 13.

So unless they can offer me an earlier start date, I can't do it...

Which means I have no internship.

And I'm just so sick of everything.

I kinda feel like there's no hope

for anything.

5/8/10 Beach Ride

2010-05-08T17:59:00.000-07:00

Met up with Caleb, Kevin, Phillip, and Will at Troy at 9:30ish.

On the way out of Troy, I was talking with Phil and then Kevin was like "brake, andrew." and for some reason I was like "huh?" and he was like "brake. brake." and then I turned around and there was a chain right in front of me and I ran into it LOL. not too bad though since I managed to skid right before.

On the way to the start of the trail, another incident like that happened. There was random caution tape strung across two poles, and I went straight through that and it kept stretching and stretching until I finally stopped...

Biked to the beach. Caleb's tire popped 5 miles in so his dad picked him up.

Kevin's a beast. He took off and got there way before the rest of us.

The last few miles were hell... the wind was really bad.

Biked to the end of the pier and kinda just lied on the grass for a while.

The bike back was even more hellish. MY GOUCHE WAS ON FIRE. AND MY BUTT TOO. THERE WAS A WAR DOWN THERE. I'm switching back to my old felt seat. G'bye bontrager R-form.

Biked back and got some water/snacks at my house.

and then...

IN-N-OUT. 3 cheeseburgers, fries, and a shake. yum.

50 miles.

SAT II

2010-05-01T11:43:00.000-07:00

I just took the SAT subject test for US History and…………… Literature!???

The USH one was damn specific, but idk. I feel pretty decent about it. No worries ‘cause I’ll take it again in June if I don’t do as well as I’d like to.

And Literature… really Andrew?

I planned to only take USH today, since it was the only one I had studied for but I very impulsively decided to take Literature too.

Why?

I DON’T KNOW. There’s somethin’ wrong with me.

My thought process was basically, “Hmm. I’m only taking one today? What other tests are there? Literature? WELL HOT DAMN THAT SOUNDS LIKE FUN. SURE, WHY NOT?”

anddddddddddd

GG.

I need to get my shit together.

2010-04-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

FBLA SLC Irvine and Sadies.

2010-04-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

FBLA SLC 2010:

Pretty damn fun. For some reason I remember last year being like SOOOOOOOO FUNNNNN but this year was still pretty awesome.

So Thursday night I spent the night at Brandon's and we were supposed to practice/ work on our ppt shieeettetet but we ended up doing nothing... I only got an hour of sleep and he only got two 'cause we're dumb.

Friday morning, Karina picked us up and we were running really late. GEORGE'S BREAKFAST BURRITOS. Cept Karina got a BLT instead 'cause she wasn't Karina that morning.

We got there at like, 9. So we were an hour late, but IT TURNS OUT WE COULD'VE GOTTEN THERE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY AND IT TOTALLY WOULD'VE BEEN OKAY.

'Cause we weren't getting our rooms until 3ish, and the opening ceremony was pointless and freakin' long. So we basically just sat around doing nothing until 3 when we got our rooms.

Roomed with Brandon, Johnny, and Philip.

Got duck for dinner. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

and then Philip and I went to the gym and we had a pretty intense cycling workout. It was only 15 miles, but we set the thing to random at a pretty high level so the machine generated a bunch of hills. It was definitely more tiring than a regular 40 mile beach ride. We were sweating BUCKETS. I put my dirty clothes into my track bag and it soon became my "death bag" 'cause it seriously smelled like death. Actually, it's still in my suitcase... I'll do laundry tomorrow...

We showered and then headed over to the dance and met up with Amy, Julia, Justine, Jessica, Christine, Leslie, and stuff.

The dance was probably the saddest thing ever. Lights were half on and music was soft enough so that we could seriously talk to each other in normal voices at a reasonable distance.

We ended up leaving early and playing Apples to Apples in their room. Funnnnn stuff.

Julia and Michelle ended up staying the night in our room.

SO LIKE WAAAAY LATE, like probably 1ish, we started working on our presentation. And we sorta realized how superfucked we were. Our ppt was likd 2/3 done? and we had not practiced even once yet. After I fixed up the ppt and added stuff, we tried one run through just wingin' it and it was the worst thing ever.

Johnny wrote out a script for himself and he practiced like mad, which PAID OFF 'cause he ended up being the best of us three.

Brandon and I wrote out a script too. Not to memorize and read word for word, but so we could know exactly what to say and not dance around the crap. We ended up sleeping at 4 and waking up at 8.

Saturday:

So many things could've gone wrong. We were missing a chord to the projector and Lambert was chilling at the pool and not around to get one for us. And we had no clicker and Johnny didn't have the right clothes... But it all worked out. PHEW. The transformation of our presentation from 8 to 10am was pretty crazy.

THANKS SO MUCH PHILIP, JULIA, AND MICHELLE FOR PUTTING UP WITH OUR CRAP AND CRITIQUING/ HELPING US.

even though none of them read my blog. s'okay.

Presentation started at 10:30.

We killed that shit.

It started out kinda rocky 'cause Johnny accidentally clicked too far in the ppt so he had to go to the laptop and get us back to the start. And I forgot to turn on the speakers so we had no sound for like 5 seconds of our video clip until I jumped over to it and turned it on. And then I started my part of the presentation pretty badly :/

But I redeemed myself in the Q/A session. The questions were, "If you weren't limited by the 4 minute time constraint is there anything you would have added?"

and I knew exactly what to say 'cause we actually did have that problem. Idk. My answer pretty much came to me with no problem. and the judges asked some other stuff.

Idk we did damn well though.

We got back, I tried to sleep but Johnny was sitting on the chair next to my bed and resting his pillow schlong on my head. I ended up knocking out for an hour only to wake up to Johnny's sock grazing my arm, and my god. It was one of the jankiest feelings ever.

Anyways, we went to Julia's room and played Naked and Apples to Apples with errrbody. Arcadia x Sunny Hills x Troy

So skip to Awards Ceremony

When we got called up in the random order we were all like, ready to piss our pants 'cause Monta Vista, Lynbrook, Los Osos, and HOMESTEAD were freaking owning in a lot of the team events and stuff. So we got up there and we had a little prayer/ pump up thing.

5th place... not us. PHEW we're not last. okay okay okay.

4th place... Not Us. OKAY ALRIGHT. OKAY C'MON ONE MORE.

3rd place... NOT US. YEAHHHHH MAFAKAAA WE'RE GOING TO NATIONALS.

2nd place... HOMESTEAD. WOOOOOOO MAAFAKAAIAN HOMESTEAD BITE THAT YES YES YES 1ST PLACE FUCK YEAH.

1st place: Us. Yay

The awards ceremony was pretty whack though. None of Troy had seats so we all had to stand in the back of the room through the whole twoish hours of the awards. And a lot of people ended up getting tired of standing so they just straight up left. But a lot of people came back and supported us when Digital Video Production got called up so I felt like we should stay behind for the whole thing and cheer.

So we cheered for every Troy name that we heard. A lot of times I felt like I was the only one cheering though. Idk. My voice died afterward, and especially this morning. I woke up and I felt like I was going through puberty round 2. My voice was low and scratchy and whenever I tried to raise my voice it'd crack haaaard.

Anyways, after that there was the stupid NLC meeting and then the dance! The dance was freakin' weird 'cause the lights kept going on and off haha. But it was pretty fun.

We went back to our rooms and ate our leftover pizza and ramen and knocked out.

That's the end of state.

Random Stuff that I forgot to include in the post:

- Weiner pillow fight

- Tay?

- "OH. I thought you said you liked it in the ear."

+other stuff.

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And Josephine asked me to Sadies today!

Basically, when I got home I napped for around 5 hours. and then Brandon called me and told me to go to my front door 'cause he had the windows 7 cd that I left at his house.

I was sooooooo tired so for 3 and a half minutes I was basically just like uhhhhh dude just bring it to school tomorrow. leave it in my mailbox. naahhhh i don't wanna get up.

And then FINALLY I was convinced to get to the door. So I got up, pulled on some clothes and opened the door.

Josephine, Sarah, Brandon, and Philip were there and there were a bunch of lit up candles on the ground that spelled SADIES (even though I didn't realize that it spelled something til later.) Then Josephine took two big bouncy balls and threw em at me and said, "I finally got the balls to ask you to Sadies" ahaaaa. :D

Anyways, yeah. Thanks Josephine!

It's been a good few days.

I really do not want to go back to school.

17 yesterday

2010-04-13T20:02:00.000-07:00

CC's video^

Thanks Heidi, Karina, CC, Derek, and Brandon for a great birthday!

So I went to the cardiologist today all the way down in San Clemente...

And EVERYTHING'S FINE. WOOHOO.

They did another EKG and the EKG showed the same result as last time so they did an echo, which is pretty much an ultrasound. They put the gel stuff on my chest and I saw my heart through the monitor and stuff... it was kinda cool.

Turns out I have a really really borderline case of mitral valve prolapse. 1 in 10 people have it or something. And coupled with anxiety and other extreme stuff it's supposed to make slightly irregular heart beats or something. But right now it's perfectly fine, and the doctor said she only heard the murmurs because I'm so skinny.

So I can do stuff again yay.

Heart Problems?..

2010-04-07T21:02:00.000-07:00

the love of my life just turned me down... just kidding. Real heart problems, potentially. but probably not.

I went to the doctor's office today 'cause I had to get a TB test 'cause I'm volunteering at the hospital, and since we were there I figured I'd tell the doctor about my chest pain that I had when I was sick and how it's been coming and going recently.

She told me to get an EKG (those heart monitor things with the nodes and stuff that you always see in the medical shows) but that it would take a week just to get the authorization... and all that time I wouldn't be able to run 'cause we wouldn't be sure if there was a problem yet.

But since my mom's a nurse she just borrowed the EKG machine and did it for me.

The chart showed that I have an abnormality in my right ventricle?.. But it's just one reading from the machine so it's not for sure or anything.

Then we bumped into a cardiologist that my mom knows and he took a look at the chart and told me to get a stress echo, which is when they put you on a treadmill and monitor your heart rate and other stuff.

AND I have to get a blood test for thyroid problems at some clinic somewhere in the next few days.

So until then, I can't run or engage in strenuous activity.

...

I think I might go biking Saturday anyway. I'm like almost positive I have nothing wrong with me since the pain's been gone for 2 days now... but my sister's had a bunch of problems with her health in the past so I guess it's possible that this might be real.

Idk.

So I'm basically REALLY out of shape right now after not running for just a week and now I have to take another week off.

5 minute mile...

Maybe next year.

BIKE PARTS CAAAAAAME!

2010-04-05T21:50:00.000-07:00

Yayyyyyyyy! :D

my only concern though is that the 120mm stem might be too long... I went on a ride and I felt like I was way too hunched over, and when I stood up on my bike for uphills or sprints, I had to go way forward and I felt the weight on my arms.

:/ Good long ride either Saturday at the Beach or at San Diego with the Valencia buddies.

The ideal plan is that we bike to the train early morning, take our bikes with us on the train and bike around the city all day. We might finally make this work after 3 years of dreaming...

Even though I don't think any of us have even checked if we can bring bikes or what time and stuff. BUT S'ALRIGHT.

The aerobars came too but they slip when i put them on... :'(

Dome not true (Brandon posted it) + BIKE SUSHI EDUCATION MCGANGBANG

2010-04-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

Even though it's obvious I've got no game and had no dome, I felt the need to clarify and Brandon convinced me to leave the post as it is.

Hehe, funny conversation with Alicia and Brandon

I stayed logged in on Brandon's computer after I left, hence the dome post.

Fun day today.

Biked in clark park with Josephine and Derek

Made sushi at Brandon's with Heidi, Sarah, Josephine, Ricky, and CC

Watched An Education

And McGangBang run with Alicia and Brandon to top it off

Wooooooooo :D

Dome

2010-04-02T21:58:00.001-07:00

I really really really enjoy it.

April Fools!

2010-04-01T02:04:00.000-07:00

axy93 1:33 am
dude
josayole 1:36 am
?
axy93 1:36 am
i just started coughing
like a lot
and a little blood
came ou
t
josayole 1:37 am
SHOOT
ANDREW!
dude
go see a doctor!
axy93 1:37 am
APRIL FOOL'S
HEHEHEH
josayole 1:37 am
.........................
don't talk to me right now

axy93 1:50 am
i think i'm ready for the test
tomorrow
josayole 1:50 am
Really?
that's good!
axy93 1:51 am
APRIL FOOLS
josayole 1:51 am
................
....................................

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axy93 1:56 am
i watched 9 episodes
of scrubs today
josayole 1:57 am
AHHAHA
wow
are you done with season 3?
axy93 1:57 am
APRIL FOOLS
i didn't watch any today
yay
josayole 1:57 am
OKAY
TAHTS IT
I HATE YOU

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axy93 2:00 am
oh dude
in all seriousness though
axy93 2:00 am
i have to talk to you about something
josayole 2:01 am
yea?
axy93 2:01 am
APRIL FOOLS
josayole 2:01 am
OM GDASKLfeaw
jfDSAKFJEWKLNFLEKWJFEw
axy93 2:01 am
i didn't have anything to talk to you about
josayole 2:01 am
JFEWKALFNEAWN!

I'm kinda proud of this analogy

2010-04-01T01:34:00.001-07:00

ali20618 1:28 am
how hard
is the make up test
axy93 1:28 am
it's always a bitch
i hear
ali20618 1:28 am
more of a bitch
than if i were to go in cold tmrw
axy93 1:28 am
probably
like
if we go in cold
tomorrow
it's like we're naked fighting a wolf
but if
we take a make up
it's like
we have a helmet and some shoulder pads and maybe a baseball bat
but the wolf is now a giant robot wolf with flamethrowers and spiky armor and a machine gun for a mouth

I feel like such shit right now

2010-03-30T00:19:00.000-07:00

I don't know what the hell kind of sick I am.

My head hurts. throb/pulse sorta thing.

My ribs feel like they're bruised. They ache. I feel really fragile.

My chest hurts when I breathe deep.

I feel lightheaded every once in a while.

I think crazy thoughts.

But I'm not coughing and I don't have a fever or any other symptom that's usually associated with sickness.

Sick

2010-03-28T14:14:00.000-07:00

I got a headache Friday night out of nowhere...

and then it stayed with me Saturday

and now it's full blown crazy today.

I woke up 3 times in the middle of the night with my head throbbing like crazy and feeling dehydrated and all this crap.

Man.

On the bright side, I bought a cinelli frog off ebay today. $50 BIN, $5 shipping. Yay

I finally won a bid on ebay

2010-03-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

I've been losing bids on all these bike parts the past few days.

I finally won one.

Bontrager Inform R Saddle

$18 :D

The auction ended at 6:25 this morning and I bid in the last 30 seconds and there was nobody to outbid me 'cause...

EVERYONE WAS SLEEPING. WEEEEEEE

Nitto RB-009 Bullhorn Handlebars

$40 mmmmmm

and

661 Raji Cycling Gloves

$22

I've got the fizik bartape that Sheila got me for secret santa ready for the bullhorns, and those gloves will be nice for keeping the bartape clean and my hands won't hurt as much after long rides.

yayyy

For a minute there,

2010-03-22T21:54:00.000-07:00

I lost myself.

Fullerton Tri-Meet (Troy vs. Fullerton vs. Sunny Hills)

2010-03-20T13:32:00.001-07:00

Before the varsity mile I was feeling really nervous... and then the race started and I actually felt surprisingly good.

My splits were:

1:09

1:17

1:19

1:21

1 Mile: 5:06 PR

I was 3:45 going into the last lap and I actually thought that maybe I could break 5. Maybe, maybe maybe. I thought to myself that I had to push hard, but of course, I slow down a lot 'cause I suck nuts at speed. Part of me was kinda disappointed 'cause I thought I could maybe pick it up, but I didn't. But then another part of me was damn happy 'cause that was a second PR within 2 days. from 5:20 to 5:13 to 5:06.

2 Mile: 11:48, ballsack time. felt tired after the first lap haha.

5 minute mile, here I come.

Next week perhaps?

So I took half the day off today.

2010-03-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

I overnapped until 6 this morning when I woke up completely exhausted.

So that means I had not studied for my spanish or bio test.

I asked my parents if I could just skip the first few period 'cause I felt so tired, and they were okay with it.

I slept until 10ish and then woke up and made the chinese club modern mix for international show.

Making a mix was harder than it seemed...

Then I spent an hour reading chapter 10, and I drove to school.

Got there at 12:30, checked into the office, and tried to study bio in the library.

I sucked big nuts on the bio test, but I don't really care anymore.

I should, but I don't.

Damnit.

I felt really out of it today.

Not so much all that anxiety that I felt the past few days.

Today was just.. hm.

Another track meet tomorrow.

Probably won't PR 'cause we just had one Thursday, but it'd be nice.

Good news:

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Los Osos HS
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MAAFAKAAAKIN' CENTENNIAL, HOMESTEAD, LOS OSOS, AND MONTA VISTA,

YOU BEST WATCH YOUR ASSES

'CAUSE WE'RE COMIN'.

Troy vs. El Dorado Meet

2010-03-18T19:48:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna blow up.

I had a huge wave of stress hit me today again..

Like, anxious, antsy, wanna GAHHHHH stress.

And I don't know exactly what's causing it... it just comes and goes.

I hate this.

Troy vs. El Dorado:

1 Mile: 5:13 PR

2 Mile: 11:30 PR

pee hard.

Help me find a way out.

2010-03-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

SO THIS GIRL IM'S ME FIRST.

jessica57849 10:34 pm
who is this?
axy93 10:37 pm
i don't know who you are and i don't know how you would get my sn if you don't even know who i am.
jessica57849 10:39 pm
uhh ur the one who aimed me...
jessica57849 10:40 pm
how did you get my sn?

I HATE IT WHEN RANDOM PEOPLE IM YOU DEMANDING TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE WHEN YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO THAT PERSON IS.

I hate March

I hate this week in particular.

I hate biology these days.

I hate the heat and the sun.

I hate... those certain things that make me tick.

I just want to sleep.

I feel discouraged, bored (same thing every damn day), unmotivated...

This sucks.

Everything.

There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

Instead, there's that giant boulder from Indiana Jones:

'Cept I'm no G like Indiana Jones so I'm not gonna be able to escape it.

Damn you, boulder.

I can't do this all on my own...

2010-03-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

I'M NO SUPERMAN

I'm up to episode 14 Season 1 of Scrubs.

Freakin' love it.

I paid for an apple fritter in all change today... and not sissy change either... FULL ON PENNIES, NICKELS, AND A FEW DIMES. NONE OF THAT QUARTER SHIIEETEITETIET.

cept I felt bad 'cause the lady got kinda mad..

Bio's a big hoe this semester. It's a big mess... I don't think anyone's taking that class seriously anymore. Eh.

I need new glasses (since I lost mine thursday........)

EFF YOU DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME/ Beach Ride

2010-03-14T14:01:00.000-07:00

I meant to wake up at 8:30 so that I could be out the door by 9 and finish my beach ride by 11:30

BUT YOU SNEAKY LITTLE ASS OF A DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME, YOU.

Ended up out the door by 10 and done by 12:30. For some reason I don’t like biking between noon and 4:00 PM. I don’t know why.

Anyways, first real bike ride since I got my license two months ago.

40 mile ride - Felt sort of outta shape, ass hurts a little, sunny as hell, and strong winds.

But it felt damn good.

I think I’m going to legitimately commit to saving money for my bike. I’ve been eating out way too much. waaaaay too much. I have less money now than I did when I started “saving.”

I posted this on my tumblr first for some reason. and THEN copy and pasted it onto here. IDKWHYZZORZZZ

Thursday Friday

2010-03-13T12:58:00.000-08:00

Thursday:

Troy vs Segerstrom

Sucked. Haha.

5:25 Mile

11:43 Two Mile, PR.

Felt like crap.

Had allergies for the first time ever. Sneezing like crazy, running nose... ee.

Friday:

Met up with Jessica after school since she was coming to Troy for refuge club or something?

We drove over to Quickly and caught up.

Catching up with friends is always nice.

I just slept 15 and a half hours.

9ish PM (last night) to 12:40 PM.. (today)

Cept I woke up on my own at 7:48 AM, and I was like wtf. This is too early, so I tried to go back to sleep.

I kinda regret going back to sleep though 'cause I had the craziest dream ever. I don't remember any of it by now. but i remember it was CRAZY. like. idk.

YOU GOTTA SLOWWWW DOWN

2010-03-10T22:49:00.000-08:00

SWEET TALKIN' WOMAN

YOU GOT ME RUNNING (RUN RUN!)

YOU GOT ME SEAAARCHING

HOOOOOLD ON

SWEET TALKIN' LOVER

SO SAD

IF THAT'S THE WAY IT'S OVER.

I lost my APUSH steez.

I love my spikes

I love my new track bag (5 dollahhhh)

I hope I'm ready for tomorrow.

Lately I've been remembering my dreams when I wake up, but I debate whether or not I should type up the dream and I've been too lazy every time... and so I end up forgetting the dream when I decide to sleep for another 10-20 minutes.

Water and 80

2010-03-09T23:52:00.000-08:00

So this morning my water bottle in my backpack decided to open up and spill on my way to school, so I opened the trunk to find water all over the mat and water all over my binder.

I told Mr. Rogers my homework was wet, and he took a look at it, said it was alright and, "I'm just glad you're turning in a complete assignment, man."

ahaaaaa.

WELL THERE'S MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM... ('cause i'm gonna start doing homework)

seriously. I'm doing homework now. My homework for last chapter was 28/42..

And then some dickface gave me an 80% on the business test.

That little shit didn't even write his/her ID or anything on the back.

I DIDN'T DESERVE 80 EITHER. DAFUCKKK

I should've gotten some marked off on my graph, but my writtens were pretty much right.

No way 80.

Karma did not return the favor, 'cause I gave my person 100.

I wrote my name and then crossed it out on my test too. Someone out there hates me.

Little shit white lightning heightening all my courage quick wit

After practice I drove to sports chalet to look for sliders to wear under the race shorts when they come in, but I couldn't find any for cheap. They were all like 20 bucks. Jordan and Derek said they're just like 10.

I got a $5 track bag from Ross for my spikes. I'ma try 'em out tomorrow. I forgot to bring 'em today.

Aubrey has a cool apple beanie

Tired and uninsp...

2010-03-08T19:46:00.000-08:00

No, i'm not gonna finish that.

I always see status updates or people just posting those lines, "tired and uninspired," and I always thought to myself, really? really? So everyone's gotta pick this one line? It's that relevant? Damn. Not me. Never me. No sir.

But guess what?

That lyric feels damn relevant to me these days.

Maybe not in the i-want-you-girl-but-i'm-tired-and-uninspired-and-you-change-that way but more in the i'm-tired-and-uninspired-not-'cause-of-some-girl-but-'cause-i'm-legitimately-tired-and-uninspired way...

But I still won't use it. 'Cause I'm better than that. -just kidding.

Lately I've been tired and uninspired.

BAM

There ya go, I'm a hypocrite.

But yeah, seriously. I don't know what's wrong with me. Lately I sorta just don't care about school. Like, Idk. I know that's dumb. Really dumb. But I feel burnt out maybe? Even though I know last semester I didn't work all that hard either... But a hell of a lot harder than I would have if I went to some other school.

Last week, I straight up didn't turn in the Part IV critical analysis questions for English... Didn't do math homework again...

I'll seriously come home and watch a movie and then take a nap and never wake up.

Hot Fuzz was damn good, btw. (Watched it today.)

yarp... yarp....... narp?

I'm supposed to start being good again today.

I think I will try.

My spikes came in today.

I decided to just get a pair of cheap ones. These were on clearance for 25 shipping included, so not bad. I like how they look. I'll see how they feel tomorrow.

Shower.

Dinner.

Homework. Forreal. (I hope.)

S'all.

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.

2010-03-08T00:37:00.000-08:00

Stuck in reverse

Troy vs. Pacifica Track Meet

2010-03-04T18:49:00.001-08:00

Hydrating and eating right works.

Or maybe I've just gotten faster.

PR'd (personal record) in both my events.

Last Year's PR:

One Mile: 5:36

Two Mile: 12:20somethin'

Today:

One Mile: 5:20

Two Mile: 11:45

I think I wanna shave 5-10 seconds off my mile time for next meet

and I wanna at least get 11:30 for two mile next time.

5 minute mile here I come! :D

Mmmmm

2010-03-03T20:38:00.000-08:00

Need to load up on carbs and water.

Track meet tomorrow.

Hoping to start off with a PR, or at least something close.

My blister opened up a few days ago and it's just about the most annoying thing ever right now...

duuuuu maaaaaaaaaaa

2010-02-28T18:20:00.001-08:00

cool.

FOR NARNIAAAAAAAAAAAAA

2010-02-27T23:04:00.001-08:00

I just watched Lion, Witch, and the Wardrobe.

yay